hello & good bye

why do people underestimate me? i’m actually not that stupid. i just don’t like to show it unless needed :)) i know it’s lame.  i dont have that much motivation either. so get off my back.

i’m truly disgusted with my body. i’m determined to stop eating and just lose weight. maybe then i’ll get noticed. this is no guilt trip kind of shit. i dont want people to feel sorry for me. but it’s how i feel.

ohh wait there is none.

LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I DIDN’T DO SHIT.

a slut, a boyfriend stealer or a homewrecker. every bad name in the book besides bitch i am not!! i am far from that. i dont want a boyfriend and i dont want one. i dont want to be with a guy nor do i need to be with one. i am fine being single and i am DEFINETLY enjoying it. my single means hanging out with my girls and enjoying the things i couldn’t do when i was with shaun. and trying to steal others girls BF is one of the things i am not doing. i dont want him. he’s not my type. trust me. you say i almost ruined your relationship omfg?! the only ones to blame are the two in the relationship. hello i took responsibility of my fallen apart relationship. and now that we are in a good place i will not do anything to ruin that.it took a lot of growing up to get to the place where me and my exBF are now.

& here you are again trying to start drama. thank you and good bye leave me alone. i dont want it nor do i need it.

i dont want nor do i need a boyfriend. i am completely satisfied where i am. i love shaun yes i do and yes we’re friends. and yeah he still cares about me and i still do. and i wont do anything to jeoperdize that because i like where we are. i like being able to talk to him on a different level. it’s no longer i love yous but i dont care. he’s one of my best friends. and i’m glad it’s gonna stay that way. i make mistakes and he helps me. i make mistakes and yeah he gets mad but he forgives me. NO!! we are not FTFs that makes things complicated. sex=duct tape ( i read that somewhere once) we are at a point in life where we just wanna stay friends and hopefully in the future we can try again. so get it straight.

school can go to the deep darkest parts of earth. i hate college. it’s too much stress. my teachers are too strict and complicated. i swear one of them is slightly crazy.

wow it seems that everyone my age is getting preggos. and they all seem to be keeping thier babies. it hurts a lot because God took my baby away :((((. i understand God didn’t think i was ready but i’m pretty damn sure those girls aren’t ready either. i would have given my daughter all the love she could ever wish for regardless of whether or not her father wanted to be part of her life. i would have done anything for her. i love her. she’s my angel now and she’s looking down on me. mommy loves you tahnee akemi goya-agustin <3333.

she’s so asian :))) & her middle name means bright and beautiful

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But I did not want to. He meant so much to me but he wasn’t treating me how I deserved to be treated. I hope he truly loves me. In my heart I will forever hope that maybe one day, he will wake up and see that I am the only person he wants to be with. And maybe just maybe me letting him go was really worth it. Because in the end, I am afraid that no one will make me feel as great as he did and I will be forever alone.

 exactly how i feel.